Worries

I'm not sure where to start other than i go back to work in a week and I'm worried, scared, stressed and a little overwhelmed. As I sit here it is 11:15pm and I should be in bed fast asleep just like the rest of my family, but I'm too worried to sleep. I guess I'll start by making a list of everything that is bothering me:

• not sure if I'm going to be able to leave Ansley without crying
• have no babysitter to take Ansley to if Zach gets a job
• Zach may have a job interview next week then we are really screwed on a sitter
• not sure i trust anyone else with Ansley (hell i can barely leave her with our parents without calling/texting every 5min)
• want soooo desperately to be a stay at home mom, but financially isn't possible
• having to get up at 4am again just to make it to work by 6 with an hour drive plus have to feed Ansley before I leave
• worry that if Ansley does go to a babysitter than other kids will put their germs all over her
• Keep thinking my mom will quit her job and watch Ansley for me when I'm working
• not sure i want Zach to get a job right now because i want him to stay at home with Ansley since I can't. ( I know that's wrong to say, but she loves her daddy time)
• need a babysitter part time since i only work a few days during the week
• didn't think i would have this much trouble stressing over finding a babysitter and one that my mother-in-law approves of

I know there are many more things that I could list, but I'm already crying and should probably try to sleep before Ansley's 4am wake up call. Does anyone else stress this much over leaving their child with a babysitter??